Two years ago.

I was sitting in a couch in the lobby of Sims, waiting for my friend Merrill.

I got a call.

"They took him off life support. Taylor has passed away."

I was paralyzed.

Shocked.

Couldn't move.

I sat in that chair and Merrill came out and I could barely speak.

All I could say was "Taylor's gone."

She knew I had to move, do something, besides sit in that permanent state of shock.

So we walked around campus, and I started bawling.

I cried, endlessly.

I ran into people who didn't understand.

I didn't really understand.

I still can't grasp that this happened.

Two years and I still feel like there's some way we could fix this, bring him back.

I know it happened.

I know we can't change it.

That doesn't change the fact that that sucks.

SO MUCH.

I pray for all those love him.

I can't imagine the pain.

I wish so badly I could do something for them.

I miss you Taylor. I miss your laugh, your smile, the way you always made me laugh.

I miss waiting for the elevator when we were late for class and you would be barefoot in your pajamas.

I miss pranks on each other's doors.

I miss talking about how much our lives sucked.

My car getting broken into, your wallet getting stolen.

Remember when you first met me?

I was dancing to Justin Timberlake in my room, my door was wide open and you knocked on it and cleared your throat.

Remember when you came into the bookstore when I worked there and you yelled at me for not having your book, but... I found it and there were plenty of them. HA.

Remember when I was studying and you and Jon both climbed into my bed and I had NO idea you were there and you scared the living shit out of me?

So many good times in such a short period of time. I wish I had known you longer. I wish you were still around.

It's funny that night of your accident when you came and hung out with us for a while after you left Sowjanya and I both said that we felt like we were all gonna be good friends. You were our favorite guy on our hall by FAR.

We would have been great friends.

You would have laughed like hell when you saw me on crutches.

You would have found a way to cheer me up.

I'd see you whenever I visit the boys. I never did get to hear you rap.

Heard it was effin fantastic, :P

Miss you kid. I'll be seeing you.