The stormy days ain't over
I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost
Now I've watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after all
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait...

I am a fool.

There are just a few certain situations, that I'm not so sure how to describe but to say that they just bum me out. I've done nothing wrong, and neither has anyone else but the circumstances surrounding these actions have left me feeling pathetic and worthless.

I've done stupid things with stupid people, and while they may never think twice about it I have done nothing but mull over them in my spare time. Which is understandable, I've nothing else to think about. They have many many things to think about. I seek damaged goods.

I've told myself I would stop for a while now, but instead I've slowly entangled myself into an addiction. I would say it ends now, but who can say for certain. I think I'm going to try.

Other than these predicaments I have fooled myself into, life has been good. Everyone's back in Columbia, though I miss my summer loves that have left me. Class has started and I predict it's going to be a tough semester, but so far I don't particularly hate any of my classes, which is always a good thing. I've never partied so much consecutively and it's taking it's toll, but I've loved every minute of it. We're having a huge shabang for one of our roommates' birthdays which is extremely exciting. And as for my new roommates and our new house, I'm loving it. We get all get along pretty well and we've had a lot of good times already. And it's so easy to escape into your own room. I'm thankful for a lot, and everything in life is going pretty well. That certain section will be addressed and I believe it's just a hole that I'm aching to fill, but looking in all of the wrong places. I'll figure it out... I know I can.