summersweet.

sweetsummer.

fireworks with the family. explosions in the sky. card games before the sun sets.

the week started with a return from an ocean vacation.

sleep was in order.

fully recovered, went out on the town.

made splashes of drama, discovered drinks, and laughed with new friends.

caught up with old ones, conjured up grand plans.

the next night was spent in watching the curious case of benjamin button.

each family member slowly drifted out of the room and to bed.

i was the sole survivor.

the next two days the brother stayed home with me.

meaning harry potter, harry potter, harry potter.

all five movies, sucessfully watched in order.

amazing.

tomorrow the family's spending the day at the lake.

i have to admit, i think our family's pretty spent.

sleeping all day on the boat, sounds like a great idea.

in other news.

-wondering if you even thought about telling me, and decided it wasn't necessary or if you just promptly forgot about me. in any case, i hope you have fun in your new life and i wish you all the best. good luck.

-i am always questioning people's intentions. overeager guys seem to turn me off, even when it's probably not so overeager.. just normal. i read too much into really small things. the big picture, i think i've got a handle on, but the small inconsequential details i let get to me. maybe i should just let it ride. see where life takes me. instead of avoiding and asking for advice at every corner. maybe it has nothing to do with that. maybe i already know something, but i'm trying to convince myself to stop making the same mistakes. but feelings always overrule reason.

-i am crushing. i know it. it has no potential. at least i don't think so. he is the type i look for. at least i know it's a lame crush. i thought crushes were gone along with high school, but they have cursed me quite a bit. stupid crushes and drunk texting and calling. i have done very well with this one. i have not verbally/via text berated or harassed this one while intoxicated, and hopefully will not. that's saying something ;) i think i'm starting to get that one under control.

god my crushes make me look so typical. i have such a type.

maybe one day. i'll like a guy that likes me.

that i deserve.