Where is the magic?
The spark?
Where is this... thing.. I've searched for, for so long?
I know I'm young, but still it hurts all the same.
For much, much younger, have loved and lost.
While I've never loved at all.
So many have been worth it, for someone to take the chance.
Someone to play the game for.
Maybe I just don't fall for the tricks.
Maybe I've been worth it for 'the game'.
But I always knew what the game was, and I don't play games.
Do I end the game before it's begun?
Maybe I think it's a game and it's not.
Maybe I should try harder, but what the fuck is that?
I'm not the type, to overly show a guy I'm attracted, when he should know for the most part, so that he can laugh about me later with his friends.
I want the guy to like me, so I become one of the guys. I say that chick is hot in the movie, because well actually I'm pretty jealous of her she is pretty hot, it would kinda suck if I got stuck next to her in a line-up.
I like being 'one of the guys', chilling, not giving a shit, I get to be me. I'm not one of those dumb sluts that Im usually makin fun of. But it gets me NOWHERE.
Well so far, it's gotten me nowhere.
It's gotten me a ton of guy friends that don't give a fuck about me really, cause that's what we do.. not give a shit about anything. But me, I'm still a girl at heart and I give a fuck about everyone.


Why the hell do I have to not care about life, but care about the people in mine? Geez.

Haha, just kidding.. kind of :P