sell me.

Epiphany?

Or does it make me feel better.
It doesn't really make me feel better, it makes me feel sad.
Cause if that's really how his mind works, then it's incredibly stupid.
But then again, I should know that by now.
It makes sense though, it makes a lot of sense.
Pity.

We never had much chemistry anyways, why am I an idiot.
I guess sometimes your brain can't find anything else to think about.
And being stuck inside this house has given me plenty of time to think.

There's got to be a reason I was closer to them then most people.
I hope it's because I'm friendly, chill, and they just generally liked me more than the rest of my hall.
Not because they thought something else.
They would've invited me along.
I mean they did later, and the more they realized I didn't and wouldn't the less they seemed to like to me.


Fuckkk I need to get out of this house. Stupid idea to get surgery during the summer, stupid stupid idea.