i've got a lot to say to you.

No regrets right?
I've got a few.
Of all the nights I stayed up in the hall till 3, 4 hell some nights I didn't go to sleep. I/we chose that night to go to bed early. The only Thursday night football game and we decide to watch it and go straight to bed.
I didn't hear a thing.
Not one thing.
And he was supposed to pull through.
He was.
but he didn't.
And the last time I saw him he was laughing and he said that if we won that night he'd come back and pull the fire alarm. We told him he'd better fucking not, and I really wish he fucking had. I really wish he had.

And that's the game that everyone remembers, the game that they ask me were you there? And I say no, and they say oh my god you should have gone it was the most intense game ever, the best, and we were in the rain cheering them on, and we fucking beat the hell out of them. You should've been there. I smile and say yeah I heard, but in the back of my head I'm thinking of him and that night, and how when he left we both agreed that we were getting to know our neighbor a little better, that was the first time we had really hung out. They see the best game of the season, I see a bittersweet memory. I won't ever forget that night.

Regrets? Yes I've got a few, but there's nothing I can do about it now. R.I.P.

Want to know something coincedental?
This year's Kentucky game is on October 11.
Don't seem to catch a break. I know all we'll be thinking about is you that night.




edit/
I just remembered the time he was reading the quotes on our "quote wall" and that they were all incredibly lame, and we pretty much told him to shut up, he said he'd find us better quotes. We were thoroughly confused as to how he was going to do that, and then he realized that they were all inside jokes, not like.. inspirational or just awesome sayings. Just a random memory.