I suck at writing.

since I haven't included any creative writing in the last few posts I thought I'd catch it all up here.

give me something to write about
and i'll write it
but i'm an empty slate
i've been wiped clean
i need a feeling
prick me - hit me
take what i have or give me it all
but as i sit under grey skies
and a croissant on my plate
i'm telling you
i'm empty
and i've got nothing to say.


I use the word I a lot
in MY poetry
I talk a lot about
ME what is poetry
about if not a reflection
of your own soul
maybe some pretend
they're someone else
and tell their story
through the words
of a character
they name
and create
but I'll talk about ME
cause I keep it real
and I don't know
what the fuck else to talk about
so poets of old
teach ME
how to translate MY soul
so I don't sound conceited
as shit cause I don't mean to
I just do.

i write on lines
i make myself
i sing in keys that
don't exist
in your reality,
i am modern
art there are
no rules,
restrictions
boundaries built
by strangers
those that know
me know
not to tie me down
if you try to
i'll cut you, let you
sink.
let you fall, let
gravity
take the fault.
want to know me?
let me fly, i'll
get you on a
natural high
take you
along for the ride.

I can't write shit
but I try to.
cause I've got a lot to say
but most say it better -
so I'll let them do what they do
use their words when I need to.
let it apply to the conflicts
in my life.
credit them and love
them for putting into
action the ideas
in my head
that
quit the
flow once the
pen hits
the paper
and I'm left
with a blank sheet
but a body full of
feeling - so thank you
thanks again for that
jam that cracked me open
and poured me out
givin' me words to love and say aloud.



and my inspirational thought:


live, learn, take what you can, and let the rest go:
live how you want to
things will happen in your life
that are out of your control
but what is in your control
is how you respond to the uncontrollable
how you take the hits, how you grasp the good,
look at your life, how do you want to live?
this is how I want to live:
I want to be happy. I want to learn.
I want to feel. I want to be able to let go.
I want to live on life's edge.
I want to sit on my bed all day with the music up
and the sun shining through my window.
I want to be at peace. I want to be 50,
wise and have experienced LIFE. I want to
smile, I want to laugh, I want to cry. I want
to spread LOVE. I want to be strong
and brave. I want to crumble and break down and
know every little thing about me. I want to be me,
whatever that is. I want to live undefined and
die a definition.