crash course.

I have a good fourty minutes before class and I'm not really sure what to do with myself. I have read for my writing class tonight, I don't really feel like reading King Arthur at the moment. Hmm.. Plus I've got to leave soon because I'm driving to class. I just discovered that those with handicapped placards don't have to pay meters, so hurrah! Now to see if I can find a parking space that is actually close to the building haha.

Right now I'm blasting Regina Spektor and singing loud and extremely out of tune with it, and I dont give a shit. I' m not hyper, happy, sad, angry, anything. I don't feel anything right now. Which.. is good? I guess. I'm not empty. I'm just.. plain? Maybe. I don't know. Maybe I'm so full that everything in me negates itself so I'm just ----------- . Whatever that is.

I had a few bucket list items in my head, but I have since forgotten them. Yes, I know.. kind of sad. Oh well. This past weekend has been good. Relaxing, estrogen free for the most part. Across the Universe THREE TIMES, I know.. a little extreme. Sunday night I hung out with a guy for seven straight hours, just talking and laughing and I dont even remember what our conversation was about but it was straight up hilarious. I got to see my friend from Furman for a little bit, did a little shopping at American Apparel.. though I think I'm going to exchange my dress for something.. we'll see. I'm really excited for their show and hopefully they'll get some good exposure and meet/gain relations with people that have been doing this for a while and can get them some good connections or at least teach them a few things.

Oh bucket list! I want to learn how to play the piano and guitar.... and the drums. Oh and sit inside a recording studio and just observe someone just completely put their heart out there for everyone to hear. Wouldn't that be amazing.


As you can probably tell I don't have much to report.. So I'll leave you with some writing.


I write these lyrics down
because its hard to play the song for you
I like the wind
the way it blew dangerously too
It swept our heads together
A mistake that shouldn't have ever occured.

We collided
books scattered out of our hands.
From that moment on
we were never apart again.

I’m scared, and I’m sorry
I was defenseless.
There were no
defenses, against this.
and im scared, and i'm sorry.

I want to accept that im in love with you
but the facts state that lovers are fools
and it doesnt take much to see, that im falling
I’m falling.

Because if its real
There’s the biggest chance that
One of us will hurt
and one of us will never recover again.